Thursday, February 21, 2013

An Unready Heart of Mine: A Disastrous Valentine That I Should Forget



The start of my 2013 wasn't good. I thought I was ready, but I wasn't.

There was a guy, 6 years older than me. We met at the same workplace but different field. He decided to pursue me and I let him prove that he's worth it. But everything had changed when a sudden thing happened that I never expected. That thing was a kiss; a kiss that supposed to be memorable, but for me that was a disaster. In fact he said 'I love you' so fast... For me, it's kinda weird and awkward that he's never been my bo. Yeah, he came to my life at a wrong time. But now, I'm fully decided not to entertain guys until I am ready to fall in love and be in a relationship.


Since I'm a music lover, I made a list of songs plus lyrics that I can relate to my recent life.



M2M - Don't Say You Love Me
You're moving too fast I don't understand you 
I'm not ready yet baby I can't pretend 
No I can't 
The best I can do is tell you to talk to me 
It's possible eventual 
Love will find a way 


Don't say you love me 
You don't even know me 
If you really want me 
Then give me some time 
Don't go there baby 
Not before I'm ready 
Don't say your heart's in a hurry 
It's not like we're gonna get married 
Give me, give me some time 




Jojo - Disaster

You shot the bullet, you shot the bullet that killed me
Not feeling my heart beat, and I was dying
I, I've been through it
I, I've been through the all agony

And now my eyes I'm trying, trying, no more crying
Lying's just a game
So disaster strikes and I'm all right 'cause my love's on his way


'Cause the walls burned up and our love fell down
And it turned into whatever now we're saying never
Feel the fire 'cause it's all around and it's burning
For forever and always

We gotta let it go, be on our way
Look for another day, 'cause it ain't the same my baby
Watch it all fall too the ground
No happy ever after, just disaster




Joss Stone - You Had Me
You tried to trade on my naivete
But the things you do and say embarrass me
See once upon a time I was your fool
But the one I leave behind is you

Hey listen you'll be missin'
Out on all my love and my kissing
Make your mistakes on your own time
When you come down you're just no good to have around
Instead of making money you took mine


You had me
You lost me
You're wasted
You cost me
I don't want you here messing with my mind
I've realized in time
that my eyes are not blind
I've seen it before
I'm taking back my life


Nina - I Don't Want To Be Your Friend

I'll forget we ever met
I'll forget I ever let
Ever let u into this heart of mine baby
You just gotta let me be
You gotta keep away from me
Coz all I want is just to be free from you baby
Don't you come around
And say you still care
About me, just go now , go now


Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it'll be the way it was before
Don't think that i care
I'm not over you yet
And i don't wanna be your friend


Jojo - Too Little Too Late

I was young
And in love
I gave you everything
But it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate (You know it's just too little too late)
Go find someone else
In letting you go
I'm loving myself
You got a problem
But don't come asking me for help
'Cause you know...


It's just too little too late
a little too wrong
And I can't wait
But you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real
It doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)




Taylor Swift - We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

Then you come around again and say
Baby, I miss you and I swear I'm gonna change
Trust me, remember how that lasted for a day
I say, I hate you, we break up, you call me, I love you


Oooh we called it off again last night
But Oooh, this time I'm telling you, I'm telling you
We are never ever ever getting back together
We are never ever ever getting back together
You go talk to your friends talk
To my friends talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together


To conclude, I will wait for my Prince Charming to come into my life for as long as there's a guy who will accept, care, and love me and my family.  





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